Back at the feeling of utter FRUSTRATION with this flat & nervy feeling!! Countless times throughout my days I feel nervous with a pressure on my chest. Oh and you know what, I still have been googling my condition trying to find comfort in not feeling alone and looking for help and motivation in other people’s steps to recovery, great reminder that “blogs” work! Gosh I just have so many questions circling in my head!!
Ok so here is a start, I don’t feel happy with my current medications, so I’ve been on and off and swapped types of medications (all doctor approved) now for 6 years, but 6 years appears not to have been enough time for me to find the medications that work for me best. Now let me tell you, the process of taking medication, swapping them, weaning off and back on to a different type are all hard, long and scary steps for the patient. The current medications I take are Fluoxetine 20mg and Lyrica 150mg twice daily. I wonder….what medications or other remedies work for you, I’d really LOVE some ideas?
After having a crappy few days last week with nerves, nausea and that weighty feeling on my chest I decided after thinking about it that my most crippling time of the day is first up in the morning, lasting a couple of hours starting as I wake up, so I’ve been setting my alarm to wake myself at 5am to allow my body the time it needs to wake, relax and breath before I have to put on my big girl pants and push myself to get the kids ready for the day and off to school and other daily activities. I do still get the nervy feeling, heart fluttering, heavy chest and constant tired feeling throughout the day but it comes and goes more quickly and is defintaly push throughable.
Can you see why I’m frustrated, everyday….the same thing…..
I wouldn’t normally be feeling these symptoms unless I’m relapsing or coming out of a relapse, which I guess I still am but this end is lingering.
When anxiety is peeking my Psychiatrist starts me on 25mg Phenergan twice daily also. The Phenergan works well for me I think but when the relapse is on the end he slowly weans me back off the Phenergan which I have now completly been off for like 2 weeks, and this is why I’m questioning my medication I think because I feel as though my withdrawal is really lingering. Never before after coming off Phenergan have I felt like I’m withdrawing for this long (however I think that every time I have come off the Phenergan my withdrawal from it is getting longer each time). And so naturally with anxiety comes the landslide of “self doubt” and I’m worried and wondering….maybe I still need the Phenergan….maybe my other daily medications aren’t enough of a dose for me…and the thoughts just keep rolling in.
All I want is to damn well think straight, feel lighter and not talk about myself and my problems!
Please, please reach out if your feeling the same, maybe we can help eachother by talking through this together, or maybe you have some solutions or ideas that work for you that you would like to share with me.
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